The Crystal Trees

Frida eventually passed on and Jace was left alone in his parents house. Jace visited their graves every week to put flowers on them, and one day he found a very strange, very spectacular happening when he went to visit.

Jace usually went to the burial site during the day, but this time he decided to go at night. He noticed a soft glow from the base of the ground near the graves. He inspected them, Crystals were growing from the ground where his parents now rested! Over the next few weeks the crystals grew into a beautiful tree-like formation.

One night when Jace went top visit their graves he found the trees glowing different colors and changing formations. He knew now that these crystals somehow possessed the spirits of his dead parents, and they were showing him they were still watching him, caring for him. The Crystal Trees are still found in the graveyard where his family and Jace himself now rests, every time a family member is put to rest a new tree is born and imbued with a different glowing color... a rich and unique family history brought about by the magic of Lunar Lakes.

A Love Story

This is Frida. She is the resident of a strange moon where a colonizing spaceship crashed long ago. Frida has lived a tough life, she harbors resentment for the way her parents abandoned her as a child, leaving her on a random doorstep. She always was skeptical of people, their intentions and their emotions...that is until she met David.

Frida met David one night at the local bar, she didn't think much of him at the time but they later made a deeper connection through a much more sinister form...their ties to the local crime syndicate. Frida and David began working together as accomplices in the syndicate, and with each new heist fell deeper in love. 

Frida didn't know it yet, but she was pregnant with Davids child. When she discovered that she was pregnant she had mixed emotions...would this make her a target in the syndicate? Would she always have to be on her guard or could she leave her life of crime to become a mother? Giving the child up for adoption was never an option for Frida, she would never want her child to grow up with the resentments she harbored.

Frida left her life of crime and went into hiding with David in the craters of the moon. She never thought she could love her life so much, though the majority of her life had been spent alone she found solace and the love she had always searched for in her newborn family.

Unfortunately, life did not turn out all roses for Frida, on the day of her sons sixth birthday the Reaper came for her husband. 

David pleaded for another chance but the Reaper was not so kind. Frida took it especially hard, becoming withdrawn and depressed in her old age.

But something strange happened one night, Frida had just tucked Jace into bed for the night and was headed upstairs when she was confronted with a ghostly figure that looked like David! Somehow the strange crystals on this world had enabled David to come back as a ghost during the night.

Frida was at first alarmed and frightened but she found solace in seeing her beloved David again. To this day David still visits her every night and sees her to sleep. 

Would I want to be Straight?

This story post was inspired by our Voicethread assignment but I chose a different topic that fits that question more for my voicethread question so I decided to explore this one here.

The question of would I want to be straight is a very difficult one for me. It's in part a very difficult one for me because I spent most of my teenage years trying to be straight.

It doesn't work

As said in my initial posting, I grew up in a very religious background and was home-schooled and for high school went to a private christian school. I find this question hard to answer not only because of my experiences as an adolescent but also because it brings about many more questions than it answers.

What would have high school been like for me? Would I still believe in equality for everyone? Would I  be a Christian? Or a Deist like I am now? How would my life and love plans turned out differently?

The fact is, I don't know who I would be without my experiences as a gay kid/teenager. It's a question you get asked or ask yourself a lot when you're gay... if you could choose to be straight would you? If you could take that little pill, a la The Matrix, would you?

I know my adolescent self wouldn't hesitate to take that pill, to be straight, to be "normal". I can't count the times I would lay awake at night for hours praying to god to make me straight. The amount of hatred and ignorance I witnessed regarding gay people led to depression, anger and self-hatred  

The fact is that all that pain, all that suffering made me who I am. Its odd to me that I can look back on that time and be thankful for such a dark time in my life because it strengthened me. My answer to the question because of that will always be the same... 

No, I wouldn't take the pill.

Crazy Hats and Confidence

That's one of my crazy animal hats. I started buying them about half a year ago when I discovered them but you're probably wondering what in the hell these hats have to do with confidence.

Ugly Sweater Party Yaaay!

Well it's simple really, I've always been extremely reserved and introverted in terms of personality, style etc. and I had an, well I guess you could call it an epiphany, early 2011. I realized that I wasn't truly happy, yes I was happy, but I was always doing things that I thought others wanted me to do. It's kind've funny when you realize it because we seem to value uniqueness and individuality but as soon as someone does something unexpected we tend to criticize and devalue the person and as such we become afraid of being silly, of being different or, dare I say it, weird.

I decided  to stop being so concerned with others views of me and just do what I wanted to do. This tied in perfectly to my hats because I've always loved crazy things like this but was always so concerned with what others thought that I never wore/bought any.

With my newborn confidence I was able to finally wear what I wanted to without caring about the thoughts of others. Every time I wear one of my hats or buy another it reminds me that the only thing that matters is what I think of myself.